Haven’t blogged in awhile, my feelings have been like Pandora all over the place. Happy, grateful, conflicted but I’m still tapping my feet to the beat, question is am I strong enough to follow the rhythm abandon the predictable. Shed these concrete boots and FLY!!! I know every spot I land won’t be great but it’s time for a change of scenery, my heart feels it my soul feels it but oh that is that fear and the faith question. I love being an artist, all of it! I don’t like being confined by a particular genre. I love to paint a kid one day photograph a wedding the next and create a brand identity the next day. I’d like to have a day to chase my dogs, edit some work plan my future and laugh. A good laugh not a nervous one, not a what if one but a LAUGH. Free of strings or wondering, I think I want what we all do. Just to BE, creative, conflicting, confusing beautiful, but most of all alive. Felt like I hadn’t been living in years but I see it on the horizon. I have some loud lyric in my head accompanied with a snare, a prayer and my husband’s hand. That’s what makes life grande, and I’m ready for the journey.
June 3, 2011